i can't believe that its been a month since i last wrote on here...shame on me
campbell is now a big 10 month old! ahh, where does the time go?!? i find myself thinking/daydreaming about her 1st birthday party!
i am in a local bible study called bsf, and i really loved this last week's lesson. there were some mental pictures that were pretty tough to think about, but the message of the lesson was one that i loved studying. i had such a wonderful moment last night while i was rocking you know who to sleep, and as i watched her doze off in my arms, i started thinking back on the lesson i had just studied: Christ's sacrifice. we talked in our group about how the suffering of Jesus brings peace and healing and how when He was being accused He stood silent, knowing that as awful as things had been and were still to be, it was His Father's plan for the world to be saved. i couldn't help but be brought to tears as i thought of this...now that i'm a parent the amount of love my heart can hold has been magnified by 1000 and to think that the love i have for campbell pales in comparison to the love that Jesus has for her simply melted my heart. i've grown up my whole life hearing, 'Christ died for you' and this is something i know and believe, but knowing that He also did that for her - it was as if i was hearing it for the first time. my hope and prayer is that campbell grows up believing these same things and following Him daily...
Still, it's what God had in mind all along, to crush him with pain. The plan was that he give himself as an offering for sin so that he'd see life come from it—life, life, and more life. And God's plan will deeply prosper through him. Out of that terrible travail of soul, he'll see that it's worth it and be glad he did it. Through what he experienced, my righteous one, my servant, will make many "righteous ones," as he himself carries the burden of their sins. Therefore I'll reward him extravagantly—the best of everything, the highest honors— Because he looked death in the face and didn't flinch, because he embraced the company of the lowest. He took on his own shoulders the sin of the many, he took up the cause of all the black sheep.
i'll leave you with one of my favorite pictures from our trip to michigan and a picture i took of her today :)